I stayed in this weekend. I’m trying to curb my spending and since I’d already promised m I’d go see her b/f’s act on Sunday night; I didn’t bother going anywhere else. There were a few softball fundraisers happening on Saturday, but that would require dropping some cash for games, drinks and all that fun stuff. There was also a ladies only dance happening at the centre, but as laser so eloquently pointed out; ladies only dance = cougar trap central. The last thing I need is a cougar in my life. Ick, can we say grilled cheese effect? Ewwwww.

Sunday was alright. I finally met m’s b/f – I have to say, I was not overly impressed. He looks a lot older then his age, he’s not attractive at all and he sent my gaydar off very quickly. It was the weirdest thing when m and I walked up to the club, buddy and his friend were standing outside. m and he just kind of looked at each other awkwardly, like they didn’t know what to say or do. Meanwhile, they’re dating, you’d think they’d be a little more self assured in their relationship. There was this really awkward pause where the four of us just stood around waiting for someone to start the introductions. The show itself was alright, none of the acts that I saw (I didn’t stay for the whole thing) were funny – but I can’t honestly say any of them really made me laugh. Thankfully, m’s b/f got us in for free. I had hoped there’d be food served, alas, I was disappointed with that too. I hadn’t had anything to eat since lunch, so I was pretty hungry. Once buddy finished up his act, I drowned the last of my beer and bid m a good-night.

I’m worried about m though, she found out this weekend that her mom might have cancer-she’s scheduled for a biopsy tomorrow. She wasn’t sure if she was going to go, as she didn’t want to know the results. m’s also second guessing her relationship with buddy. She’s odd though; because she can easily convince herself that it won’t go anywhere, but then she’ll hear from him and everything’s good in the hood again. She needs to be re-assured all the time. She really likes this dolt, so I’m hoping it works out for them. I did however, lie to her yesterday. She asked me what my gaydar had to say about her beau; I lied and said it hadn’t gone off. The last time I made the comment about him sounding gay, she got really pissed. I didn’t feel like having that arguement again.

And while on the topic of relationships, it looks as if l has finally realized its time to move on from g. They haven’t spoken since s made her re-appearance, but g did e-mail saying she loves l only as a friend. Thats just fucking brutal; how you can string someone along like that and fuck with their head is beyond me. That kid has a lot of growing up to do; and I hope that she gets as burned as she’s been doing it to others. I just hope l sticks to her resolve and focus’ on doing what she has to do for herself. She’s let herself be pushed around and hurt for the better part of a year, she deserves better.

The bride-to-be found out yesterday that the job she’d interviewed for (the one she really wanted) went to someone else. That sucks; especially since she was so well suited for that job. I hoping she finds something kick-ass soon.

I might be getting a column on a site; stay tuned to this space for upcoming details on that.

lady d is beginning to annoy me. In one breath, she’s telling me she’s thinking about going out and sleeping around to build up her confidence. In the next, she’s telling me that she’s had a long week which wasn’t helped by the fact that she was waiting to hear from me. wtf?! I would recommend therapy, but she’s already going so I’ll just leave that be.

trouble told me yesterday she’s thinking of skipping out on pride. She’s so sketchy about how she talks though; I didn’t know if she wanted to me offer to hang out with her during pride or if she just wanted to throw it in my face that she has someone who wants to spend the weekend with her in a hotel room. I wonder if men are this fucked up???

Work has been ever so boring the last two days. Since I got my boss to take things off of my plate, I find myself without much to do. Oh well, we got a summer student for a reason; might as well keep her as busy as we can. Fuck knows I’ll be busy again in September once she goes back to school.

Ran over two miles today; felt good, but oh so sweaty. I need to start showering at the gym. I’m feeling it now, legs are sore and I’m tired as hell. But here I sit waiting for the person I’d really like to talk to to make herself available.

Aye.

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